Thursday, May 8, 2014
The Collapsing building
My mom keeps talking to me about college and her vision is hard to see. She keeps pressing and pressing it on me and I'm not sure what I want to be yet. I don't want to go straight into something I'm not ready for. Or worse yet, be stuck with some job I'm not happy with. It's overwhelming especially when I'm not even sure if I'll graduate and whenever I tell my mom that she goes off and cries hoping I'm not losing hope. But I'm not, am I? I'm not even sure. Sometimes I just want to pause my whole life and just breath because at this point of my life I feel suffocated. I feel like I'm standing on a very tall building that's about to collapse and I don't know what the first move to come out a live should be. And it's almost as if jumping off this building would be the correct thing to do. But I know if I give up my mom will be right there to walk me up that building and try again. NEVVVVVER give up. Cause there is no second option. SADLYYYYY.
Monday, April 21, 2014
DIEting
Dieting. DIEting. DIEting.DIEting.
I literally feel like death because all I ate was a salad, yogurt, and some crackers. I was told today "why are you dieting? You look fine" and I responded with "Do you have love handles?" and she said "no" and I said "then you'll never understand".
I want to be comfortable with my body and I want to be able to wear whatever I want to without feeling self conscious about myself and how I look. I think thats a normal issue with anyone.
But back to DIEting. I feel hungry 95% of the time and the other 5% I'm thinking about what to make later that'll be healthy and that'll make me full. STRUGGLE TO THE MAXXXX!
On the other hand it can be very fun because its a new lifestyle! I love going on Pintrest and finding a new lunch idea or snack idea that's delicious and easy. So, I think it'll just be one of those things that I'll just have to get used to because if I want a nice body, I'll have to struggle.. A LOT.
Another issue with trying to have a better body is exercise UGH NO PLZ NO NO.
But that's not about dieting and honestly I'm to hungry to write about exercising.
PRAY FOR ME PLEASE.
I literally feel like death because all I ate was a salad, yogurt, and some crackers. I was told today "why are you dieting? You look fine" and I responded with "Do you have love handles?" and she said "no" and I said "then you'll never understand".
I want to be comfortable with my body and I want to be able to wear whatever I want to without feeling self conscious about myself and how I look. I think thats a normal issue with anyone.
But back to DIEting. I feel hungry 95% of the time and the other 5% I'm thinking about what to make later that'll be healthy and that'll make me full. STRUGGLE TO THE MAXXXX!
On the other hand it can be very fun because its a new lifestyle! I love going on Pintrest and finding a new lunch idea or snack idea that's delicious and easy. So, I think it'll just be one of those things that I'll just have to get used to because if I want a nice body, I'll have to struggle.. A LOT.
Another issue with trying to have a better body is exercise UGH NO PLZ NO NO.
But that's not about dieting and honestly I'm to hungry to write about exercising.
PRAY FOR ME PLEASE.Monday, April 14, 2014
To care or not to care?
NOT CARING
Not caring is something I think we should all carry within ourselves because to me its much more relaxing. Its good to care about something that matters to you such as family, friends, school or work. But if its something that isn't quite worth you enegry or time then quit wasting yourself on it, matter of fact DON'T CARE! One thing I think you should not pay any mind to is someone talking about you. Why let someone bring you down on there thoughts? Especially if they're talking about you and you arnt worried about them. To me its very funny and entertaining!
Not caring is something I think we should all carry within ourselves because to me its much more relaxing. Its good to care about something that matters to you such as family, friends, school or work. But if its something that isn't quite worth you enegry or time then quit wasting yourself on it, matter of fact DON'T CARE! One thing I think you should not pay any mind to is someone talking about you. Why let someone bring you down on there thoughts? Especially if they're talking about you and you arnt worried about them. To me its very funny and entertaining!
When I wrote this someone told me it was contradicting because of my blog name "Try Happiness".
To me, being happy is not caring so much and just living. So to care or not to care.... you answer.
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